L.O.L.

And today was a day just like any other.

2011-06-26T23:24:00.000-07:00

I can't say that I imagined being where I am now, three years ago. Did that makes sense? It's late and I'm listening to Enya - that's beside the point. Three years ago today I became part of something that means a great deal to me. I thought about it all day and wanted to be excited but, I felt I didn't have the right. I'm not the same I was. I change all the time, everyday, every minute. With every happy memory, every passing moment. Time. Time is what is always redefining me. Us. Everyone.

Picking up the pieces is a lot harder than scattering them. Everyone has to learn from their mistakes. I guess before I learn from mine, I have to learn to not be so hurt by them.

Idaho or Bust

2011-01-01T04:21:00.000-08:00

You know what, maybe I was wrong.
Maybe what I REALLY need is to go to back Rexburg.
Decisions, decisions.

How am I EVER going to get money for that?

Someday...

DENIED

2010-12-26T00:50:00.001-08:00

I may, or may not, have applied to UVU just now...
Like, JUST now.
Wow, I'm really hoping that wasn't a stupid decision.

Is it rude to think it's not as good of a school as the church school?
I feel like people have to get turned down in order to feel good about being accepted somewhere.

Yeah, that's rude. But whatever, I guess I'll have to apply into the program I want anyway once I'm "accepted" to UVU.

I mean honestly, who asks for $35 to "process" an application and then right after you submit it it says,

"Dear Leanna,

Welcome to Utah Valley University. Thank you for submitting your Fall semester application. Please allow 2 business days for processing.

Once your application is processed we will email an acceptance letter to your email address provided during the application process and to your new UVU email address...."

I'm sorry. That's too easy for me. I wish it would've just said, "Ma'am you're not good enough." With a big fat, in bold print & red ink, "DENIED."

Now, then I could move on.

I'm difficult. I know.

Notebook Paper

2010-12-14T17:02:00.001-08:00

I really should keep a better journal, a physical journal.
I don't really count my blog as a means of personal discovery through the art of writing but, then again...

Let's get physical, physical... journals. Yeah?
Mmm, maybe.

I just have a feeling that one day after the internet has blown up we will have to live primitively and all will be lost.
Everyone will be so sad that they've lost all their memories... BUT, not MEEE...

Maybe, I'll get physical, physical... maybe.

Silence

2010-12-12T10:51:00.000-08:00

I want to fill these pages with all that I am,
and yet I'm at a loss for words.

It's Love.

2010-12-11T03:20:00.000-08:00

It's terrible how much I've stopped writing,

It's disgusting who I've let myself become,

It's ridiculous that I let my life get this much out of hand,

It's crazy that I've made it this far without singlehandedly ruining everything that I've worked so hard for,

It's a wonder that I remember the things I was taught (which seem) so long ago,

It's amazing that I have the support I have, even separated by miles;

It's a miracle that I've mustered up enough faith to pull through this,

It's grace that's found me where I am,

And it's love that keeps me going.

There's no stopping now.

It's time to move on.

2010-06-16T09:47:00.000-07:00

I've decided that I really need to rekindle my relationship with blogging. It's good for the soul.. (well, my soul that is). I'm going to try and post as much as I can about the events in my life. Not so much for strangers to read but for my own personal benefit. I am ALWAYS in need of some type of creative outlet and if I don't do something soon, I'm bound to go nuts.
I have a new blog project in mind that I'll set up pretty soon. I'm in the middle of coming up with a url for it. I'll post it and soon as it's ready!

sincerely,

me.

It's Official

2009-12-06T01:57:00.000-08:00

I'm awful at commitment. So much for the 3-6-5 challenge... I do nothing all day and STILL don't have the motivations to write a blog and post a picture. I'm so lazy. Ew. Anyway. Nobody reads this ever but it's okay. I'll write my ideas down and no one will steal them... muahhahaha. I'm making a boutique.. a blogging one. I haven't quite got everything figured out yet so I can't say much about it right now except for the fact that it's a new egg waiting to... hatch? Man I'm cheesy.

Just wanted to say that the roommates and I... or more like Shannon and I (because no one else cares) decided we'd do something nice for our fu-hee brothers. I baked gingerbread cookies ALL freaking day and then we spent the majority of our evening decorating them. I hope they like them... anyway I'll post pictures and deets later :)

Night!

♥me

DENNY'S! (#10)

2009-10-21T23:59:00.000-07:00

Denny's! It's the best, especially late at night.

We really needed to escape NASTY Rexburg. Denny's is the best we could do considering the circumstances.

Also, I'm holding my ear because Taylor just elbowed me in it. :)

Cheers.

Fisher-Price Anyone? (#4)

2009-10-15T22:40:00.000-07:00

3-6-5 Challenge, Day 4:

We decided to go to WalMart. I was SO tired so, I got in for a ride. Weeee! I'm holding a puzzle that we ended up not buying... I should've just bought it. There was also a two HUGE bags of Halloween candy. We decorated our apartment with Halloween decor and have a huge candy bowl that was emptied (quite quickly) and was in desperate need of a refill!

YUM!

Glass (#3)

2009-10-14T19:55:00.000-07:00

3-6-5 Challenge, Day 3:

Ellen Hopkins is my FAVORITE author! She is AMAZING!! This is one of her novels. It's actually the sequel to Crank (AMAZINGLY WRITTEN BOOK). So far, it's my favorite book.

Glass is phenomenal too. I just finished reading it today. It made me cry! (Like a child I might add).

The reason that I love her so much is that the way she writes is in the form of poetry. There aren't a bunch of stupid "fluffy" words in there that are only used for the simple fact of filling up a page. The only words written are completely necessary, no fluff!

I can't wait until I finish writing my first book. I hope I can make readers feel the same emotion and impact that as much as Ellen has done for me. Her writing is SO powerful. It makes me feel like I'm the character. It's amazing and I can't wait for the 3rd book in the series, Fallout!

Fantastic job Ellen Hopkins! You're my hero!

Deadly Kisses (#1)

2009-10-12T22:03:00.000-07:00

3-6-5 Challenge, Day 1:

My roommates and I are working at a haunted house in Rigby, ID... It's

actually in an old sugar mill (it's called "The Old Slaughter Mill"). Anyway,

today is Monday and it was slower than usual. We had some down time

and I picked up a new boyfriend, he's hot huh? We were caught in an

intimate moment... Woopsie. I just love♥ him!

3-6-5!

2009-10-12T08:13:00.000-07:00

I was talking to my roommate, Shannon, the other day and she said that in one of her classes they were challenged to post a blog with a picture of the day for each day of the year for one year, even if it is only a picture of the day (which, I think I can handle)!

I have decided that I want to try and do that for an entire year. Yep, one a day, even if it is only a picture of the day.

Cheers to blogging!

Ps. I'm not counting this one as the blog of the day... I'll post that right after this one!

A Little Update-Soup For the Soul.

2009-08-02T22:42:00.000-07:00

So, I haven't blogged in a while (a REAL blog that is). It's time I updated whoever reads this on the C.I. (current issues) of my life. Here we go...

My 21st birthday is in 9 days, August 11th (how crazy is that getting older... weird).

I have been so busy with my newly acquired job at good 'ol Massage Envy (Yes! I AM working there again. No! Not the one in Everett, WA). It's in Idaho Falls, unfortunately–don't get me wrong I love Massage Envy, I just hate Idaho. Why do I hate poor innocent Idaho? Because my family doesn't live here, duh. And it's too brown and dry for my liking. Anyway, I am happy with my new job, it's super easy.

Speaking of... we have a twitter account. (WHAT!?) Yeah I know, I didn't understand that when I first heard it either. Apparently, twitter accounts raise the business we receive by 500% (We'll see how it goes).

My boyfriend, Carson (who's lucky I didn't dump him for doing what he did) left me here for the summer––ALONE. I'm not opposed to him going home at all. I know he wants to spend time with his family and I'm ALL about family. I just wish he wouldn't have begged the crap out of me to stay in Rexburg and then split at the last minute... Leaving me with a housing contract that I couldn't get out of without a penalty of compensation. Yeah, I miss my family too, couldn't he have figured out that he missed them a month before school got out and not two days prior? Yeesh, men.

This town sucks too. It's a giant black hole. Sucking energy, light and anything else it can get a hold of and swallow down. There's NOTHING to do here and NO ONE to talk to–major ghost town. Everyone that I work with is into alcohol or I'd hang out with them. Sadly, I'm extremely susceptible to that sort of thing and need to stay as far away from it as I can at all costs.

I'm currently working on a novel and... OH YEAH! I finally, FINALLY decided on a major AND minor. Yahoo, snaps for me. I decided on majoring in English with an emphasis on Creative Writing (I think...) so I can try to be a novelist. My minor is going to sound somewhat random but since I'm getting a BA in English and not a BS I have to take a bunch of foreign language classes so I figured I might as well kill two birds with one stone and minor in French.

Well that's enough random babble-brooking for one night...

Don't forget to wish me a happy birthday, I'll need all the birthday wishes I can get. Love you all.

Goodbye & Goodnight

Love, me.

Love♥Language

2009-07-18T00:56:00.001-07:00

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

I have multiple love languages!

My Detailed Results:
Quality Time:	7
Words of Affirmation:	7
Physical Touch:	7
Acts of Service:	5
Receiving Gifts:	4

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.

Take the Quiz!
Check out the Book

LoveOutLoud♥Photography

2009-06-29T22:18:00.000-07:00

I have some important information to inform you with...

DRUM ROLL PLEASE!

...

....(drums are rolling)....

...

I finally came up with a photography name!

(HOORAY!)

LoveOutLoud♥Photography,

Yes, LOL Photography.

What a hoot.

Anywho. I purchased a domain name and started a website for myself and my newly acquired photography name.

NO. There isn't anything on it right now (it says it's under construction).

YES. I did purchase the domain a bit early... however, I wanted it now. Couldn't wait.

GO. Ahead & visit it anyway :)

(click below)

LoveOutLoud♥Photography

♥me

Mr & Mrs Dixon

2009-06-22T13:17:00.001-07:00

my little marie is all grown up♥

ICE

2009-05-10T01:28:00.000-07:00

Saltwater Room

2009-04-29T13:33:00.000-07:00

Time together is just never quite enough

When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home

What will it take to make or break this hint of love?

We need time, only time

When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?

If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?

So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?

All the time, all the time

Time together is just never quite enough

When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?

What will it take to make or break this hint of love?

So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?

All the time

-Owl City

(A.K.A. One of my FAV bands)

2009-04-26T19:18:00.000-07:00

hi, this is dara. i hope leanna doesnt kill me for doing this. i don't even know when she'll find this.

but i was on her computer and going to update my computer and it logged into her.. hmm time to turn into a HACKER!! muahaha

anyway...

10 reasons i love leanna:

1. she laughs at me no matter how stupid i am (in fact, more when i'm stupid then ever)

2. she lets me be an emotional girl and doesn't think i'm stupid for it.

3. she has a strong testimony, even when opposition is coming at all angles.

4. she's a really understanding person/roommate.

5. she's happy.

6. she's messy. so i don't feel bad when i am :)

7. she's way supportive. always, goes to my shows, talks, etc..

8. she's chill... we can sit on her bed and take five thousand pictures and have fun.

9. she loves eating delicious food.

10. she loves me for me!!

1st Semester Down.

2009-04-14T14:05:00.000-07:00

I don't think I have posted any pictures of my adventures up here in Rexburg... probably because I carried so much hate within the deepest trenches of my heart & soul towards this cursed little town (I'm still trying to learn to like it), that I just didn't care if there was proof that I was here... Recently, there has been an exciting change though.

I'm definitely looking forward to summertime.

Anyway, here's some evidence that the Burg isn't TOO bad.

Dara and I being dorks, *aka. ourselves.

Friday the 13th @ Somerset.

anti-super-bowl sunday w/mimi.

laughing.

"Classic, Leanna is up to no-good look." -Brent Marchant

glasses.

A Faulty Assumption & Erroneous Expectations

2009-04-10T13:04:00.000-07:00

*Due to the intensity of my anger at the near moment, this dissertation will be utterly positive, despite my irascibility. No negativity whatsoever; strictly to retain the remains of my sanity:

I believe many of us unknowingly accept a faulty about the Lord's pattern. And his faulty assumption them produces erroneous expectations about how we receive spiritual knowledge. And that faulty assumption and our misinformed expectations ultimately hinder our ability to recognize and respond to the prompting of the Holy Ghost.

Let me suggest that many of us typically assume we will receive an answer or a prompting to our earnest prayers and pleadings. And we also frequently expect that such an answer or a prompting will come immediately and all at once. Thus, we tend to believe the Lord will give us A BIG ANSWER QUICKLY AND ALL AT ONE TIME. However, the pattern repeatedly described in the scriptures suggest we receive "...line up line, precept upon precept...," or in other words, MANY SMALL ANSWERS OVER A PERIOD OF TIME. Recognizing and understanding his pattern is an important key to obtaining inspiration and help from the Holy Ghost.

For he will give unto the faithful line upon line, precept upon precept; and I will try you and prove you herewith. (D&C 98:12; emphasis added)

(Taken from the talk "...Line upon Line.." by David A. Bednar, 2001 Devotional, BYU-Idaho)

SUMMERTIME♥

2009-03-01T15:41:00.000-08:00

So... GUESS WHAT?!

I'm staying here in Rexburg for summer semester!

Yeah, it's a surprise to me too. I didn't really want to and in fact I'm still

trying to convince myself that I do want to. But I was told to so, yeah.

Maybe I'll find a husband?

Pshh. HAH. We'll see... whatever is meant to be will happen,

I don't doubt that at all.

I'm actually very excited to spend my summer with

Daraka C. Gleed, my best friend EVER.

HOOORAHHH! (Yes, Hoorah, like they yell in the army).

Anyway. Peace out homies.

I'M STAYING IN REXBURG!

♥Me

Cleaning Up My Idiosyncratic Hard Drive.

2009-02-05T01:27:00.000-08:00

I definitely believe I made some personal progress tonight. I stayed up until... now, being 2:28am. Talking to Dara & Rachel. My best friends ever. I like how genuine they both are. I love them so much, I've never felt so comfortable with anyone before.

I got to tell them my so called "life story" tonight. It hurt, like pouring lemon juice into a fresh cut. Yet, somehow it was healing me at the same time. Talking about my past takes a lot out of me. I didn't realize how good it would feel to cry or get emotional about it. Letting it out changes it.

People say that you can't change the past ----> I think that "burying" the past doesn't change it, but accepting it and applying the lessons you learn from it does CHANGE it. If you accept it, there is an automatic filtering process that separates the negative from the positive aspects. That sounds like a change to me.

So tonight I'm making a written affirmation, as record, that I accept it:

Dearest Past,

I embrace you.

I forgive you.

♥Leanna

Institutional Nausea

2009-02-02T13:47:00.000-08:00

It is interesting how scintillating the average human being is. How there is an unnecessary savage-like avarice that never ends; How in most cases results with calamitous consequences. How the grass is always greener. Ergo, what may be the reason to this feature? Simple, a classic case of an individual separated from those commodities which it holds with such warm endearment: feeling homesick.

Homesick:

home•sick [hohm-sik] ADJ. - Experiencing a longing for one's home during a period of absence of it.

BYU-Idaho, Semester 1

2009-01-12T00:05:00.000-08:00

Dearest friends,

Today is my one week mark here at BYU-Idaho. So far I like it. Whether it be freezing beyond point of control, walking to school in the blizzard, or hanging out with friends - it appeases me. My original plan was to leave Rexburg after the initial semester (but somehow) in this first week, it has grown on me much more than I expected. I can't say with much honesty - anymore - that I want to leave just as bad as I used to. Well, I could say it, but it would definitely be as far away from the truth as Pluto is from the Sun.

In this last week I have made some great friends, both male and female. How is it that a person (ME) can attain so much love for people they have just barely met? Whether good, bad, shy, scandalous, socially-awkward, or outgoing the students out here are - I can say, that Lord does work with us all and DOES have a purpose and reason for us to have met those who have already come into our paths.

I'm grateful for the opportunity I have been given to come to this university. Already, I have been humbled beyond words and do regret the things I have previously thought prior to my arrival here. Sometimes, it IS hard to get used to all the rules we have here. Whether or not we find them silly and pointless. I am privileged to come to this chosen school which has been prophesied over, and to learn along with all of my fellow students, brothers and sisters all the things in which we are to learn; both educational and spiritual.

Generation DEAD

2008-12-22T22:30:00.000-08:00

I haven't written a blog in a while...

(I'm waiting to go off to school, I'm sure I'll have plenty to write then)

I just finished reading a book I bought yesterday.

"Generation Dead" by Daniel Waters

VERY GOOD.

(It's a love story... )

If you like reading... preferrably fantasy-ish-esque

type novels, I suggest going to your local Barnes & Nobles

and purcharsing a copy of your own...

I bought mine @ Target for approx. $16

Happy reading!

SLC Temple

2008-10-08T01:24:00.000-07:00

Only the most gorgeous pieces of architecture I have ever laid my mortal eyes upon. I need in.

road trip to bubble town

2008-10-08T01:14:00.001-07:00

My first road trip ever! I went to Rexburg, Idaho where I will be living in the wintertime. (January - April) & Provo, Utah! I will live there right after I get done in Rexburg, probably about mid April. Very exciting! We went through five states during this entire trip, one being Montana, which has ABSOLUTELY nothing in it, except for some really cute moose.

Day 1 & I already miss twinnerloo.

2008-09-30T19:45:00.001-07:00

Day 1 of 8. Brent and I are on the road right now [I'm blogging from my cellular device]. We're in Spokane right now... It's dark and I'm getting lonely for my twin! I love you twinner! This is for you :)

Idaho, here I come.

2008-09-22T11:27:00.000-07:00

9.20.2008

Congratulations! We are pleased to offer you admission to Brigham Young University-Idaho. We look forward to having you on campus and feel that you will be an asset to this university.

  The next step in our review process will be to determine your track assignment. BYU-Idaho students are assigned to a two-semester track for which they can enroll in classes. If you have not done so already, we invite you to provide additional information by completing a questionnaire at web.byui.edu/admissions/questionnaire/. Please complete this questionnaire within one week of receiving this letter.

  The Three Track System allows BYU-Idaho to admit thousands of students every year that would otherwise be denied due to lack of space and resources. Track assignments are made to create a balanced student body in which students and employees can benefit from a diverse, varied, and distinctive learning environment. For more information about the Three Track System, please visit www.byui.edu/admissions/tracksystem.htm.

  Once again, congratulations on your acceptance to BYU-Idaho! Rich blessings and life-changing opportunities await you here.

Sincerely,

Admissions Committee
Brigham Young University-Idaho Admissions Office

sunflowers, sultan & sunshine.

2008-09-22T03:04:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, Allison and I decided to drive around. We ended up in Sultan. When we got there we decided to talk a walk. Just a little one, nothing big.. We figured we'd walk for about 20 minutes or so. 20 minutes turned into 2 hours. We walked around the entire town twice. :)

We kept finding all sorts of amazing photo opportunities... and honestly, HOW can you deny those?? Exactly, you can't. We found some amazing sunflowers, old buildings, interesting street signs and talked to some interesting/strange people too. We ended our walk @ Sultan Elementary School... we LOVE playgrounds!

Your Blog is GAY.

2008-09-10T13:36:00.001-07:00

Tara: Your blog is GAY.
Me: What? No it's not, you are.
Tara: It's gay because there isn't anything about me in it...
Me: *Takes picture* Ok, I'm putting this one up.
Tara: What? NO! Don't put that picture of me up, why can't you just put a cute picture of my wedding up instead??
Me: Too late :)

So, ZOO Me.

2008-09-09T01:56:00.000-07:00

First post! Yay! I don't really know how to work this yet so don't make fun of me!

flamigo exhibit

kitty

"squak"

africa